let me re-introduce myself

Hey there,

I’m back :) 

Well, was I really gone?

I was just in a grief cocoon for the last 5 months. 

Some of you may know, I lost my mother this march, and to say the grief has been heavy is an understatement. The grief is layered and multi-faceted, from the ancestral disconnection after the death of a second parent, to the identity crisis of losing the role of being my mom’s caregiver, to the deep mourning of our mother /daughter relationship that never was.

The grief has changed me. Irrevocably.

I have said it before, and I imagine I will say it again.

I am not the old me.

For a few months I needed my cocoon, to absorb and feel all that I was experiencing. To hide away, to protect my tenderness, to take a break, to sit with my sadness.

 To befriend my grief.

 To give words to the changes that are happening in me. To cry every day and learn to get comfortable with that, so much so that now I miss it on the days I don’t cry…

Early this summer I started to feel my cocoon time ending, and that the chrysalis was starting to soften and become clearer and clearer. As energy was coming back to me, creativity was also coming back to me, new ideas,  and explorations of an evolving purpose. As I began to see through my little protective shell, it felt like this slow flow of energy was stirring in me. 

It felt juicy.

The word juicy remains the central theme I'm playing with these days.

I want a juicy spirituality- a fleshy, earthy, flowing, sweet, surprising spirituality. A spirituality that lives not just in airy thoughts, or ideals, but in our soft bodies, and on our luscious earth. 

This word has led me to some really exciting new ideas for my practice, from some new experiential group ideas (one working title is Ennea Lab), to the formation of a club of sorts for the spiritually curious, those of us who want to explore the juicy side of of life after deconstructing. The dreams have been revived for hosting a winter retreat, just looking into locations:) I also want to create more opportunities for crafting ritual and ceremony in the everyday.

I’m renaming my diary notes section on my website the juicy blog- in honour of this word that has given me some direction, some inspiration, and really some new life! It will be a collection of my explorations into juicy spirituality.

And I’m adding a new section to my website named Rituals & Ceremonies- where I will be offering different types of rituals. Something that has become very grounding and vital for me is to mark shifts in my life in some ceremonial way, and I really want to share that with y’all. Stay tuned in the next couple weeks as I share more about these new endeavors!

But mostly I'm looking forward

to reconnecting with you.

Hearing from you where you are at, what is stirring in your soul, what questions are rising, if anything that I’ve shared may have struck a chord with you.

Feel free to reach out and book a 1-on-1 direction session, my books are back open fully and I’d love to connect with you!